damn... (days 34-65 or March 23-April 23)

I know...ultimate fail. An entire month has gone by. But it's been a good one. This past month has been filled with honesty. Honesty towards my family, friends and most importantly myself.I got to spend time with people I hadn't seen in a very long time, and one of them was an older version of me. The me that was bold, and creative. That me that dreamed.

It's funny to hear people tell me how "bold" I am now because it's nothing compared to who I used to me. Reading my old journals reminded me of who I am at my core and why I have made certain decisions. I've been caught up with the sadness and the pettiness. I missed me. So I'm redeveloping my relationship with her.

I'm also going to keep doing what I think is best. I can't run back to a place where I didn't feel good just because it made me feel safe. I'd been there so long it got too comfortable. I'm taking chances again. I'm going for the jobs, the agent, the music. If I can't have it all-I'm going to get a least a little piece of it.