First, I know I'm horrible at making promises...especially to myself. Ironically, this realization is one of the things that has made me happy. I tell myself this all the time but I rarely ever fully acknowledge it.
FRIENDS!!! I was staying with a friend, completely for free and she never asked for anythign in return. I also have been able to see a lot of friends recently. Some I've known since before high school and it's been really good to just be foolish and with them.
SUNSHINE. after the horrendous series of storms that hit this area last weekend, all of a sudden it's warm and beautiful again. A sunny day really does put me in the best mood possible.
KIDS. the kids I babysit are awesome. Yes, every now and then they say some questionable things but, they are 10 years old. I do everything from hw to boardgames and playing outside with them and I must admit that I've loved getting back to that part of my personality.
SAFETY NETS. Ok a huge part of why I haven't been writing or keeping in touch has been coming to terms with moving back home and dealing with family. I didn't want to do it but I got tired of lying and running away. Of course the situation is never ideal, but you have to face the music. As much as I felt that I needed to figure out things on my own without anyone to protect me, I can't help but admit how nice it is to know that there's solid ground after I fall. So yes, when I finally land that shit hurts-but I'd rather that pain versus the incessant unknowing of constantly falling through a bottomless pit.
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